Eating Disorders

bulimia trouble

Posted By: Mari
Date: Monday, 24 July 2006, at 9:51 a.m.

I have suffered from bulimia for about four years now. I am scared about my problem but can't control myself from not binging and purging. It breaks my heart and it tears me up that I have so much to be thankful for and I still hurt myself. I know that I am hurting my body physically. It is almost as if I feel my body slowly suffering the consequences of this long term disease. I know something is wrong inside my body. I know it is not like it used to. Doing it makes me even more depressed and it makes me feel lonely, ashamed guilty and not in good standing with God. I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore. I have always been surrounded by loving friends and family but I am obsessed with who I am physically. I don't want to blame anybody at this point but myself. I went to the doctor but I don't think I can continue any treatment on my own. The doctor makes it seem like he understands what is wrong but I know that I need psychological services in addition to a visiting a general physician. I feel helpless.