Eating Disorders

belemirexia nervosa

Posted By: Brittany84
Date: Monday, 7 November 2005, at 4:49 p.m.

"I have belemirexia nervosa" So I have got a question, How many time can someone really throw up in one day? Well I wrote last month, and nothing has really gotten better. Since last week I have gotten a job and lost it all... I have also thrown up 20+ times since last wednesday, and lost like 7 pounds. I can't hardly move and can't say that I really want to... I still feel way to fat and wish I could just loose it all at one time. My perfect weight would be no more than like 87 pounds... I don't want to wake up in the morning and my throat hurt so bad I cna't talk. I don't mind throwing up blood, and I don't want anything to be in my stomach at any point in time. I feel like my clothes are still to tight and can't loose enough weight fast enough... On a different note I started looking at residental ED centers and its like if you aren't rich no body cares. They are so expenseive and its not like I have $16,000.00 -$250,000.00 just laying around. Back to what I was saying before... Ok, I will admit I do make myself throw up... and people think that it is weird that it doesn't bother me anymore. I kinda miss it when i a not doing it.... But at the same time i feel myself dying. and nobody in my current family cares. They just think that it is a joke... But I am just learning not to rally care anymore, unless it is about how much weight I need to loose. Well I have only eaten once today and promptly threw it up. I have stopped eatting red so that I can tell when I throw up blood... Im weak and just writing this has and it has taken energy from me... I am going to go back to sleep... my dog is up here on the couch with me I am going to lay back down now and pet her... If you want to email me feel free to do so... I don't mind and I will write back.
Brittany84 (cmsdlabradors@aol.com), Katy, TX
Saturday, June 26, 2004 at 17:55:12

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belemirexia nervosa
Brittany84 -- Monday, 7 November 2005, at 4:49 p.m.